A SYNOPSIS OF LIFE
How did I arrive here?
I came with joy and tears.
Arrived on a sunny day—Tuesday, I think,
My mom cried. Dad, well, his eyes blinked.
I was the girl they had wished for.
I was born in Indiana in 1984.
I lived overseas inGermany,
With a close knit, loving family.
I learned to fight my brothers
Then make up afterwards.
I learned to care for others
And to always keep my word.
Born, then grown, now on my own,
I’m creating a life far from home.
I play with words, when not at work,
I read big books, and serve at the church.
I’m single but crazy about someone,
Realizing new love can be loads of fun.
Perhaps, I’ll stop, enough said about me,
A synopsis of life this is meant to be.
THIS GIRL, THAT GIRL
Who is that girl
The one who wore skirts—long and drab and gray
Who is that girl
Who drowned feelings in food,
Filled emptiness with love stories
Dumped loneliness in endless journals.
Who is that girl
The one with no friends, no playmates, no outside release
Who was clumsy and awkward, big-chested, and weepy?
Who is that girl
The one who felt invalidated, unnoticed, so worthless, half stupid
Hiding dreams, denying hopes, nurturing pain.
Who is that girl
Who was afraid to speak her mind, guilty of hidden faults,
Shadowed by her brothers, jaded by religion, cocooned inside four walls, trapped in inhibition.
Who is that girl—I know her well.
It was me.
Who is this girl
The one in the jeans—some blue, some black, or stonewashed.
Who is this girl
The one surrounded by friends, asked out to a movie, respected by a guy, cared for in a church.
Who is this girl
The one who speaks her mind, who fights back, who believes God’s truth
Who is this girl
Who laughs so loud and freely
Who loves to play music
Who runs toward the sunrise?
Who is this girl
Who tore down prison walls,
Who forsook old control,
Who silenced forever the voices,
Who stood up and left the darkness.
Who is this girl
The one who is pretty, smart, and talented
Who is full of light, knows her self, is passionate,
The one who loves her God without guilt or shame
The one who is confident, defeating any fear?
Who is this girl—I know her well.
It’s me.
THE PAST
I’m not angry.
Inside beyond the cobwebs
Lies a trunk of memories
Not the happy Christmases
Or jolly birthday parties.
I dare not open its lid
Or I’ll find ripe bitterness.
Things from years as kids
Conversations, fights, bruises
Stuff from adult choices.
Not just these, but people too
Ones I care to forget.
I won’t open it—you
Can’t make me do it.
Someday—who knows—I’ll look inside
Crack the lid, to relive, the past
But now the memories, the scars hide
In the locked, dusty trunk they’re cast
I have no more to say.
No. Nothing. That’s it.
Except perhaps this:
I am not angry.
WINTER’S A PRISON
Winter’s a prison
The snow’s the guard
Icicles are the bars
Sleet adds chains
Inside my room
Stuck—desolate
Winter engulfs me
In unbreakable chains.
Spring arrives—my pardon.
PASSION
It’s a fire blazing high,
Melting any resistance,
Filling all my mind
Forcing me to dance.
It’s a snowstorm raging
Piling up it’s force
Ignoring any complaining
Bringing me new course.
What is this strange occurrence?
What is this uncontrolled breed?
Who is this unbridled stallion
Beckoning me to heed?
His tail swishes, his head bobs,
What’s his name—passion!
Mount and ride.
I love this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!